Jerry's personal testimony
The following is the personal testimony of Jerry.
I was raised in a home with four other brothers and sisters. It was a typical home of divorced parents. We were a typical family that went to church on SUNday and learned nothing while we were there. I attended Lutheran SUNday school and later on catechism classes which took place on Saturdays. I memorized all the commandments and articles and creeds etc., as I was told too, and was confirmed at 13. I thought this made you a Christian, born again, so I considered myself as such from then on. I attended church with my parents, who forced us to go, without ever once introducing us to the God of the Bible they never even knew. I can clearly remember the two faced people attending the church, those who would talk so sweet on SUNday and slit your throat on Monday. Even back then as a child I knew that this religious system of belief was a farce.
As soon as I was confirmed, I quit going to church because I was no longer forced. No one, in my adolescent years at church, ever introduced me to the God of the Bible, they just talked about Him when they took Him out of their box for a few hours, once a week. There was never any explanation about a personal relationship with Yahveh. It was all liturgical and religious.
Briefly; I had a very difficult life. My parents got divorced when I was about five years old, and my father got custody of us children even though he wanted nothing to do with us. He did it for spite, and we were raised like livestock, provided with food and shelter alone. My father never did say he loved me, simply because he didn't. My mother spoke those magic words only after I was forty five years old. My step mother raised us, but had no affection for us at all. She did what she had to do, only because she had to do so. When I was growing up she cursed me every day all day long. She made sure there was no doubt about who the Black Sheep of the family was.
As far back as I can recall my father and step-mother cursed me in every way possible, everyday, all day long. All I ever heard come out of their mouths were curses. I didn't understand till many years later how these curses would effect my life, but they most certainly did, in a terrible way. It was common for them to say things like: I was useless, I would never be anybody, that I would always be poor, that I would never get a good job, that I would never have a good marriage, or be a good husband, etc. etc. They made good and sure I knew beyond a doubt how hopeless I was, and that I would never be good at anything or have anything in life. These curses poured out over my life for an extra fifteen years after I left home, because I was foolish enough to work for my father. Because my step-mother did the books at work, every day at work I heard the same foam come out of her mouth, condemning my life, my future. Now when I look back it appears pretty much every curse they spoke over me came in affect. My life became what they demonically prophesied over me, until I got born again and had all my curses and demons removed in a formal manner.
I never knew what love was because none of my parents did love me. I only learned about love when I was in the presence of my grandmother and a few relatives we would visit from time to time.
I was a very rebellious child and hated the world from the word "go'. I made a girl pregnant when I was in my late teens and that was the beginning of the end for me. I couldn't handle the paternity suit and court battle that pursued from the moment my daughter was born. I was left all alone and abandoned by my family, to go through a legal system that tore me apart. I had nowhere to turn to, so I turned to drugs. I became a hippie. I did everything I could to cover up the pain I felt from the trauma of my horrifying childhood with women and drugs. In my later years the drugs changed to alcohol, either way, Satan had me by the throat.
I got married at 23 and divorced 2 years later. I got married again years later and managed to hold on to that marriage for 14 years. My wife and I had four other children of which we were very proud. In about 1994 we got divorced and I lost everything, including what felt like my soul. It was that year that a bunch of organizations had sent out the video movie called "Jesus". I insisted my entire family watch the movie so they would learn about the Bible, but, like my father before me, I had not introduced my family to the Messiah, because I didn't personally know Him. At the end of the movie, when everyone else was gone, I accepted Jesus into my heart. I was ignorant of the real name of Yeshua the Messiah, but the Most High granted me grace till He revealed Himself and Yeshua to me.
It wasn't long after this that the bottom fell out of my second marriage. I had to somehow try and start over again, even though my friends and family had left me in the dust. To this day most of my family and children think I am crazy, and avoid me like the plague. They can't accept the fact that the change in my life was for real, no matter how many years have gone by.
Even though I had invited Messiah into my heart I still thought of suicide hourly, not daily, or weekly, because of the hundreds of demons controlling my life. I had no friends, no money, etc., and felt lower than a snakes belly in the grass.
I remembered people saying that if you committed suicide you would surely go to hell, so I came up with an idea. Every time I approached railroad tracks, I refused to look if there was a train coming. I convinced myself that if I got hit by a train in such a manner it wouldn't be suicide and I might get into heaven.
THE NEW BEGINNING
For some reason I got this urge to go see my God-mother and her new husband, whom I hadn't seen in many years. They invited me in and listened to my story. They knew my history, so they understood what and where I came from. They sat me down, prayed over me and asked if I wanted to know Jesus. I prayed the sinners prayer again and felt something happen to me. I then explained that all my life I was in the rain and never ever saw the sunshine. They asked me if I would sit down and watch a video with them. I sat there and watched a curses and blessings video with them. I sat glued to the chair trying to figure out how this man knew ALL my problems and knew what I was going through. He was talking directly at me as if he knew me personally. It blew my mind, because everything he said had happened to me and he said all I had to do was pray this prayer and I would be released from the curses. I couldn't believe that anything that had ruined my life for 45 years could be removed that simply, but Jean and Leonard prayed the curse removal prayer with me as we listened to the man on the video. I came ALIVE like I can't attempt to explain. I was so dumb founded, I was speechless. We talked all night and they asked me to come back the next day. We sat down and watched Derek Princes deliverance videos and again I did what he said to do at the end, and I was delivered from a houseful of demons. From that point on my life changed emphatically and I had received my first potato chip. I have been grabbing at the potato chips in the bag ever since and cannot and will not stop.
I found out years later that Yahveh had used Derek Prince to help me even though his teaching had enough flaws in it to drive a truck through. Yah knew that I was searching for truth and used those in my path to help me even though they themselves were mostly immature and ignorant. I rented a little house trailer and lived like a hermit, staying away from all friends and relatives for fear of more embarrassment and rejection. I spent the next 6 years studying the Bible and every biblically related book, video and audio I could get my hands on, 8-12 hours a day. Over a 6 month period I did self deliverance, and felt hundreds of demons leave me because of the power and authority of the Spirit of Yahveh.
My mentors told me to study the Bible for a while before I looked for a church to attend, so I followed their advice. They told me that there were few churches that taught the truth, and to beware. This I took to heart. It's sad when I look back now, the same two people (mentors), who had warned me about not getting sucked in to following unbiblical church teaching, were involved in one of the most ungodly churches in our area, under the guise of Christianity. They had advised me properly, but had never heeded their own advice. They were involved in the lawless, pagan, charismatic Pentecostal church and were not at all familiar with what their bible actually said. They recited verses here and there but never understood their Hebrew meanings. Yahveh used them to teach me, even though they were ignorant of the truth.
Hebr. 5:12-14 "For though by this time you ought to be teachers, you have need again for someone to teach you the elementary principles of the oracles of Yahveh, and you have come to need milk and not solid food. For everyone who partakes only of milk is not accustomed to the word of righteousness, for he is a babe. But solid food is for the mature, who because of practice have their senses trained to discern good and evil".
I went back to the Lutheran church I had attended temporarily when I was married. I met some beautiful people at this church and became a regular. Although I was doing every religious thing I could think of, something was missing in my walk with God. I was receiving more and more revelation and the floodgates of rhema (understanding) were pouring into my soul and spirit. I was pursuing the spiritual warfare ministry with every part of my being. I was anxious to learn and share in any and everything I could experience.
I had a hard time handling the family issues that were going on all around me. I felt sorry for all my children, parents, as well as surviving sisters. I offered my children to Yah because I knew that I was incapable of dealing with the emotions and feelings that tore me apart inside. Yah took away the pain and reminded me of a very scary but true verse. Matt. 10:34-39 "Do not think that I came to bring peace on the earth; I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. "For I came to SET A MAN AGAINST HIS FATHER, AND A DAUGHTER AGAINST HER MOTHER, AND A DAUGHTER-IN-LAW AGAINST HER MOTHER-IN-LAW; and A MAN'S ENEMIES WILL BE THE MEMBERS OF HIS HOUSEHOLD. "He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; and he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me." I had to let my children figure it out for themselves, with Yah helping in every way He could. This is an ongoing process, and I pray that all of my family will someday come into the sunshine like I have, and receive the blessings of El Shaddai. Putting my family totally in Yah's hands and walking away so that I could help others be set free has got to be the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.
BAPTISM IN THE HOLY SPIRIT (RUACH)
Even though I was attending a dead Lutheran church, Yahveh allowed me to be filled with the Holy Spirit (Baptized in the Holy Spirit with the outward evidence of tongues), giving me power and authority and the use of all the gifts of the spirit written about in our Bible. This was in 1997.
I kept going back to my church and wanted to even stay overnight in the pew just so I could learn about the King of Kings. I was still naive, I honestly thought that the Holy One of Israel was in that place. I pretended I was satisfied at the church, but something inside of me was telling me to "Flee, get out of there" (Rev. 18:4). I resisted the Holy Spirit, who was talking to me, because everyone said, "don't forsake the gathering of the people", "come and share with us in the church". I didn’t realize at that time that those verses in Hebr. 10:24-27 were talking about the assembling of REAL Believers for Yah’s FEASTS, not for the assembling of some organized pagan religious group (supposedly PROTESTING), on a Roman Catholic SUNday sabbath. Finally, one day during another dead sermon, the Holy Spirit spoke to me so loud I couldn't ignore. The Spirit of Yah told me; "get out of this church, it has nothing to offer you, FLEE". I listened and walked away, never to set foot in that pagan sanctuary again. It was one of the smartest things I ever did in my walk of truth.
Just before I left the lawless pagan Lutheran church, I was immersed in a baptism (mikvah) ceremony (Apr 30/98). Yahveh gave me a scripture verse through an individual I had never met before at my baptism that I will never forget. This verse confirmed what Dad had revealed to me a couple years earlier. This verse has been the backbone of my ministry. Jer. 1:4-6 "Now the word of Yahveh came to me saying, "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, And before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations." Then I said, "Alas, Adonai, Yahveh! Behold, I do not know how to speak, Because I am a youth". But Adonai said to me, "Do not say, I am a youth, Because everywhere I send you, you will go, And all that I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of them, For I am with you to deliver you, "declares Adonai". Then Adonai stretched out His hand and touched my mouth, and Adonai Yahveh said to me, Behold I have put my words in your mouth". The word Yahveh gave me two years earlier was as follows: Jer. 1:17-19 "Now gird up your loins, and arise, and speak to them all which I command you. Do not be dismayed before them, lest I dismay you before them. Now behold, I have made you today as a fortified city, and as a pillar of iron and as walls of bronze against the whole land, to the kings of Judah, to its princes, to its priests and to the people of the land. And they will fight against you, but they will not overcome you, for I am with you to deliver you, declares Adonai."
I was then lead to a couple teaching about Hebraic roots, Sunday afternoons in the back of a local restaurant. After hearing them speak of the true Hebrew meanings of various words and passages, I was drawn like a nail to a magnet to learn more about the Jewishness of the scriptures. Without a basic understanding of the Hebrew thoughts, traditions, and idioms used in Hebraic text, it is impossible to comprehend the proper context of the Living Word of Yah.
This, as it turns out, would be a major stepping stone in my quest to seek the truth. I then combined the things I was learning about spiritual warfare, since I was set free (Isa. 61:1), with the Hebraic truth. Soon after, the doors began to open to the truth Yah had waiting for me. I repented of everything I could think of and more, (offered myself and all my Isaac's to El Gibor) and He started revealing things to me by the shovelful. I could hardly even digest what He was feeding me, and He would give me another mouthful. This has been going on now for over twenty five years.
I realized that I had been in Babylon, following the spiritually dead pagan Christian Religion. (Rev. 18:4 "And I heard another voice from heaven saying, "Come out of her my people, that you may not participate in her sins and that you may not receive of her plagues"). The best thing I ever did was get out. Now I sit back and watch other ignorant people like my old self, suffer in the name of Jesus (Je-Zeus). It hurts to see such deception, lawlessness, and paganism existing in churches that claim to be holy. The have nothing to do with the Elohim of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, and never have. The Word itself says this will happen and here we are.
DASYD MINISTRY (DO AS YESHUA DID) dasydministry.org
I took the things I was learning about spiritual warfare and the truth of the Hebrew scriptures, and combined them. I knew that truth could help set people free someday.
A friend of mine brought a lady to me that had been trying to get help with deliverance from Satanism for many years. She had been to all kinds of deliverance ministries and so-called men of God for help, but in most cases she ended up physically attacking them when they tried to help her.
She was a coven Princess for many years. Although she was a witch, she was a victim of terrible child abuse by her father. That trauma, combined with her other problems, caused her to become a victim of MPD/DID (multiple personality disorder). She became part of a witches coven because they were the only ones who befriended her. After over thirty years in Satanism she was bound and determined to find a way out. She realized that her master, Satan had fooled her and she wanted out. She turned to Yah to help her be set free from her life of horror.
Yahveh, in all His wisdom, used her to teach me everything imaginable about the dark side. I found out first hand what witches can do with curses, hexes, watchers, etc., to try and destroy the saints, or anyone else that gets in their way. I worked with Bobbi 6-16 hours a day for over three years before she was totally set free of hundreds of thousands of demons. During our many deliverance sessions she tried to kill me multiple times, but the angels always protected me. I have been sharing what I learned from those sessions with others ever since then.
Bobbi had over a thousand first, second, third, and fourth generation alters created because of her childhood abuse, and her participation in coven sacrifices and ceremonies. She was a victim of child abuse and of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). After she was set free she became an integral part of the ministry for several years. Unfortunately she died in 2004 because of breast cancer.
The first time I met this lady, Bobbi, I knew that I was into something heavier by far than anything else I had ever experienced. As it turned out Yah had sent her to me to teach me, the hard way, about alters, and the power of demons via witchcraft/Satanism. This lady who became my best friend, had been heavily involved in Satanism for over thirty years.
I have been fortunate enough to have Yah use me to help set free many people that have come for help. I cannot begin to explain the thousands of miracles Yah has allowed me to be part of over the last twenty plus years since I became a true Believer. Yahveh anointed me greatly and is guiding every aspect of my walk so that I can help others and bring glory to His holy Name.
I'm sure that anyone reading this can feel the disappointment I have in many of the so-called mainline (mostly SUNday) churches out there, and there is a good reason for it. My love for those brothers and sisters out there that truly want to seek the truth of the Word of Elohim is what causes me pain. It hurts me to see so many innocent "would be saints", deceived by the pagan worshipping practices of the many churches out there that have nothing to do with the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. Most of these proclaimed churches have become business organizations, lead by unholy men, using manmade rules and doctrine. The preachers who stand in front of these deceived sheep every SUNday are nothing more than CEO’S. I can only pray that Yahveh will send those who have ears to hear, the truth, and if I can help in any way, (via my testimony or otherwise), I would be delighted. Hallelu-YAH!
Over the last twenty some years I have written down many things that Dad (Yahveh) has revealed to me and the things I have learned from my personal spiritual warfare experiences. I then compiled this information in over fourteen books and bible studies. The introduction I have in all of my books, as follows, sums my thoughts up quite well:
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
My name is Jerry. I have no letters in front or behind my name to identify myself. I believe this is an advantage I have over many, because no institution has had the opportunity to brain-wash me, or bring me down. If I had letters behind my name they would be: "PHD" as in "Prayer", "Healing", and "Deliverance". I believe I have received what wisdom I have from the fear and respect of Yah simply because I asked for it and am obedient to His word. I have not allowed the ball and chain of tradition, doctrine, ritual, business, and politics to hinder me. I am a humble before Yahveh only, Spirit Filled True Believer, trying my best to bring glory to the Name of YHVH/Yahveh and Yeshua in whatever way I can. I am a bondservant and watchman of the Most High, the Holy One of Israel.
Being set free from the lies of christianity and the spiritual awakening I experienced when I got "Baptized in the Ruach," has led me to research information on various subjects that I believe are important to all Believers. I find that most ministers, teachers, and preachers, either don't know, or they simply will not discuss certain pertinent topics, and we certainly don't hear them discussed in church services. Therefore, with the guidance of the Ruach Hakodesh (Holy Spirit), through rhema, revelation, and my own experience, I have accumulated a lot of information on some subjects that aren't normally talked about in detail, for my own reference. Others have asked for copies of this information so I have put together books in order that I might be able to share what I have learned with others.
Your brother in Yeshua.
Satan knows that the POWER is in the NAME of the Most High. The Holy One of Israel is Yahveh (Elohim, El-Shaddai, Adonai, Yah, etc) and His Son is Yeshua. He has managed to fool most people claiming to be Christians, for many years, but there is a remnant alive that is raising the truth that He has available to us through His Holy Spirit (Ruach). If we dare to actually follow Him, rather than talk about, pray about, and sing about following Him and His Torah, He has much power and authority available to us, His priests. Obedience is the key that most refuse to deal with. "Faith without works (obedience) is dead".
The Bible says that many of the elect will even be deceived and we can see it happening all around us today. Those of us who are His set-apart, peculiar people of the way, will continue to learn and follow the Mighty One of Israel, while the others around us flounder in the manmade doctrine and dogma of the lawless, pagan, mainline churches. We will prosper in the fruit and gifts of the Spirit if we have reached our goal, while the fraudulent ministries become even more dead than they already are. We will be alive and active. We will witness miracles of The Holy One Of Israel, while the pagan palaces' entertain the people in the pews with soul power and demon forces of the adversary. We will continue to honor the Saturday Sabbath that Yahveh's commandments speak of, even if the masses celebrate Satan's Sunday sabbath. We will follow His commandments/instructions of Torah from our circumcised heart. Elohim will bless those who really love Him and obey His Living Word. John 14:15 (written in red) “If you love Me, you will keep my commandments.” Yah will continue to disclose Himself to those who are "doers" of His word as He clearly states in: John 14:21 "He who has My commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves Me; and he who loves Me shall be loved by My Father, and I will love him, and will disclose Myself to him."
Over the last 25 years or so, (since I was Baptized In The Holy Spirit), Yah has inspired me to write the following books:
Books written by myself:
1) Yahveh’s Law and The Ten Commandments
2) Spiritual Warfare Total Deliverance (Curses, Blessings, and Deliverance)
3) Holy Spirit, Soul and Body (Baptism of Holy Spirit, Godhead)
4) Christianity’s Pagan Roots, Symbols, Rituals, Customs and Holidays.
5) Bible Basics (Introduction to the Bible, Salvation, Love, & Sin)
6) Feasts Of Yah
7) Biblical Nugget’s
8) Book Of Galatians and Romans Bible Study
9) Thematic connections, Types of Yeshua
10) Hebrew, the building blocks of the Universe
11) Biblical Commentary (under construction)
12) Bible Supplement (under construction)
13) Book Of Revelation Bible Study (NA)
14) Book Of Revelation, In It’s Correct Order
15) The Last Day’s (Daniel’s Vision Of The Four Beasts, Mark Of The Beast)
16) From Darkness to Shek'hinah glory
They are not published of course. I make them available mostly to those I come in contact with during ministry.
Yah will continue to disclose Himself to those who are "doers" of His word as He clearly states in John 14:21 "He who has My commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves Me; and he who loves Me shall be loved by My Father, and I will love him, and will disclose Myself to him." (also James 1:22)